A conspiracy with a funny truth

Went out with a bunch of friends to MidValley today.

There's a nut, in particular,

Was abnormally silent throughout the whole hang out.

I thought it was my fault or something because all we do is fight and challenge each other,

And she agreed to consider me as a stranger for about... a week?

Man, this challenge sucks.

Sounds easy, but I admit: I lost.

Haha... TURNS out I CAN'T (present and future fact) endure the feeling of her not talking to me. XD

It's just weird, and funny... At the end, she told me it was not of the 'game' that silent her.

It was something else.

But then again, Stupiak. :p

Cheers to nut~, Egg.

Things has never been better.

I'm feeling much better now, much much better than ever before.

Kicking my fresh start, or as i may: the new Kiong, version 2.5 haha

Not much of a diary writer, not much happened during this week.

Keep on going!

I'll just have to move on.

Some say it's sad of what happened to me, but I say it's another valuable lesson.

Thanks to you two, I finally found out that I was really stupid... If you know what I mean.

There are two separate worlds in this planet, the religious world and the open minded.

I always think that there will be a chance where these two distinct worlds mingled together, I am wrong.

I guess it is just a fact that I should accept and live with it.

I wonder what might she tell me??

Everything's calming down now, my life, my mind... except for... my heart.

I can't forgive myself for doing what I had done.

How could I be so stupid, how could I act so hastily?

I guess the fortune teller's right (It's a machine, no money for the real one :P)

-I'm an extremely sensitive person

Here's what the machine says:

I often show artistic or cultural interests.

I am extremely sensitive and have very fine taste.

Your sedentary habit risk ruining your health.

If I want people to speak well of myself, I should not speak well of myself. (I'm perasan, it's so true :P)

Even in old age I will continue to be successful and happy thanks to love and affection.

I am sometimes compelled to act against what you would wish and this creates nervous tension and anxiety.

Scores:

7/9- life

9/9- love (awesome)

5/9- luck

9/9- health (nice...)

4/9- sex (.... is this bad or what? sex as in...?)

I guess machines can't be this accurate. Though there are lots of things that can't be explained.

So, what I want to say is:

Keep an open mind and just be ourselves.

-Cheers,

Kiong

To a girl that means/meant a lot to me.

Truce or truth?

11.28pm 9/9/2010

Hey,

I’m telling you this because I want to apologize of what I did just now, being a jerk and not answering your calls.

I was really jealous and sad of what you and Anuar said about you only like Muslims or something. I mean, why can’t people be together because of their difference in religion? For me, I don’t care if a girl is different, or younger, or older a bit than me, it doesn’t mean that I and she won’t have the chance to be together. If she’s a nice girl, then…. You know…

I don’t know whether you’re joking, being serious, or the whole thing was planned for you to test me, I’ve failed your test. I couldn’t take it. Of every time you talk about liking somebody, I get jealous and angry. Well maybe I’m just selfish, I don’t know… Thinking that me and you are not going to work out, man… my heart was being struck be the pain I’ve never experienced before. I couldn’t take it anymore so I decided to leave.

But that’s not it yet. After I got home, feeling angry and sad, I couldn’t think of anymore except me being deceived and all of the effort had gone to waste.

That’s the time when you called me, I was angry at that time, I know this whole thing makes me sound like a girl, but that’s just what really happened. I couldn’t think of anymore, I was sad too sad to answer your calls, I wasn’t sleeping and sorry, I lied. Each time you tried to reach me, I felt that there’s still some hope and at the same time, confused. I like you very much, but at the same time, hate was around me, obscuring my thoughts.

The reason I rejected Anuar’s invitation is because I wanted to have some time alone to think. And I fell asleep half way. After I woke up, everything seemed to come clear to me that of what I did was childish. I was wrong and I should have been better. Maybe you’re right; I’m not ready for all these yet, too young to establish close relationship with anyone. I’m still a bit sad right now, but you can just tell me if you’re looking forward to our relationship to be more than just friends. I’ll be ready for your answer anytime.

I wouldn’t want to force you to start a close relationship with me, because I know that a girl like you deserve better, you deserve the best. Just follow your feelings deep inside your heart, and I’ll respect whatever decision you make. Even if we both don’t work out, I’m glad and I’m happy to have a friend like you. Thank you, for you’ve made me become more mature in my thinking- a better person than I used to be.