Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Dog eat Dog

Competency
It's such a heavy word, isn't it?
Competency creates all sorts of emotions.
Joy, sadness, hate, arrogance...

I have a lot of friends,
But only 6, or less, are real and true.

Haven't finish studying,
Yet I am already full of debts

Societal pressures from family and friends,
Work prospects are unknown.
Personal goal not precise enough.

It's like being in a dark cave with sharp rocks all around,
Not knowing which way to go, or where to step on.
One wrong step causes excruciating pain and sorrow.
And the fear of taking another step,
blurs myself away even more.

I always tell myself:
Learn and you shall get,
Get and you shall conquer,
Conquer and you shall rule.
And to learn,
Takes discipline.

I'll get through this,
Starting by plan.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Something I would like to tell my best-est friend.

No, it's not for you Sez Kien, Sorry. But you know very well we're basically brothers ;)
Yilin, this post is for you. You might think it's a confession (well yea it is, according to dictionaries) but you should take this... as a compliment.

(to other readers: Just in case you think that I'm chasing after Yilin, I'm not. She's my best friend and I respect her and her relationship with her BF)

I hated you at first, then you became one of the most important people of my life.

Yea, I HAD a crush on you (and I told you this so it's no big deal right?)(; but after having known that you already have a boyfriend, I set my boundaries around you.

This is not about me liking you, this is about how much you mean to me.
You have been around me during Foundation, and you never leave(ditch lol) me for someone else (in college). :)
(Sez Kien is excluded from this story, so it counts.. haha :p)

You are.. Cute and sweet, and there's no denying over it. I'm jealous of your boyfriend; not because you are his girlfriend, but because he has a girlfriend that's extremely sweet!

You're forgetful, and that's why I scold you from time to time (I know you don't like me nagging; but hey, it could be a lot worse if you left your iPhone where ever you go!).

You treat me like no one else do, giving me the feel of being cared by somebody.
(I'm not trying to be sweet, I'm saying out the truth!)
You don't mind sharing your feelings with me and you want me to share mine with you! Every time though, I pretended being fine around you even when I'm feeling blue, and would just share my happy moments.

You're in fact a very helpful person (and I thank you, for everything you've done), I just rarely ask you for your help.
(Actually I tend to deal with most things on my own.)
We hold no secrets to each other (I guess); I always tell you the truth.

One best thing I learned from you is how to treat a girl nicely, even when it's redundant (not necessary). And every time when you say that I could be a very good boyfriend, I'd get too happy that I'd just stay quiet (it's because I didn't know how to react).

You and me, we're like brothers and sisters, like family. (NOT SISTERS! I DONT WANT TO BE A GIRL!)
And I can say, besides my mother, you're the closest person to me.
Yes I value our friendship, and there is no other girl that is capable of replacing you.
(except when I got a girlfriend, but still you are still going to be the 3rd most important person ok...haha)
Wish I'd have a girlfriend like you :)

My best wishes to you,
and remember to reserve a VIP seat for me on your wedding day ;)

Saturday, July 16, 2011

From Hell I see Heaven, and from Heaven I see a World full of Amazement.