It all seemed to be wonderful at start. The feeling of joy came to me from dawn and it did not end during my sleep.
My life went to a stage where I had never gone to, and I would not want to be anywhere else. I just wished everyday after could be like the 1st day- us being together.
It's such irony that a person who knows how to deal a lot of things easily. Dealing with friends is easy, getting new friends is easy, and even going crazy with a group of businessmen I do not even know is not hard! Maybe I was/ am being naive in terms of getting along with someone I like. I had always thought that things(love) would be the same after two people get together. If they liked each other then they should love each other par to the level of 'like'- It's just hard to understand.
The point is, love is tricky~ People can really get well and like each other pretty fast, but things might be different after they become couples. I know no one hopes to be that way but it's just something we need to take it as a fact and live with it.
Well, a friend of mine changed after she got sick. I did not know why, her attitude towards me just changed 180 in a weekend. I did not dare to ask, because I knew there was a great chance of me had done something wrong. I tried very hard to fix everything, the best I could to make her happy, to fix our relationship, but everything back-fired.
I remember reading a quote: "Let her go if you really love her." Hell, it did not say when! The fault was: I crossed the line, I got into a part of her personal space and she wanted me out, which I had no idea she wanted me to.
It was not her fault being selfish, I could had known her better. Everything just happened so fast, and I had no control over it.
I could have fixed everything
If I knew her better
If I did not ask for
What I should have worked for.
It's not her responsibility, it should be mine.
I brought us into this, and it should be me taking the responsibility.
I just wish non of these never happened. I am sorry.
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